This morning, while doing a qigong breathing exercise during my morning practice, I suddenly visualized a blinding beacon of light penetrating me deeply through my closed eyes. It lit up my mind – my whole self felt on fire with light.
My first immediate thought was, “No wonder I’ve been so judgmental of myself lately! With all this supernatural light my every flaw is revealed! With nothing to hide them, my personality defects, my selfish agendas, and my constant demands for attention, stand exposed. It’s a wonder I can tolerate my self at all!”
This is the downside of receiving Light – it reveals our less than pleasing attributes and tendencies.
Our challenge is to see these inferior aspects and accept them without judgment and self-scorn. But, how ?
The answer lies in being able to forget about ourselves; we must forget about our own incessant needs & wants, our demanding fears & anguish, our search for success & protection from failure – we forget about the self made “me” altogether for moments at a time, and then forget ourselves more and more until all that remains is the burning flames of desire to serve Source.
Believe it or not, this is the key to true contentment, this forgetting of self for service.
“Stop trying to be perfect,” says the Light, “and give up your whole self to Me.”