In the beginning it's all about becoming self reliant. This is so necessary, of course! How else are we going to be able to build confidence in our ability to take care of ourselves?
I started life on my own at an early age. I was fifteen when I left my family home. By the time I was 17, I was divorced with two small children. I had a wonderful family. They helped all they could. Who knows where we'd be today as a family but for their assistance and support! Yet their resources were limited too which meant I figured lots of stuff out on my own.
These early life experiences called forth creative and practical personal resourcefulness. I found that I was capable and strong and able to go and do for myself. I developed confidence in my ability to be self reliant. This was a good and necessary foundation for what was to come ….
Later in life I found that all that self reliance I had accrued through challenge and hardship was blocking my relationship with Source. So began the path of surrender that I continue to walk towards becoming increasingly Source reliant.
It seems noteworthy to draw attention to the fact that the essential first step to becoming reliant on Source is to develop self initiative. Moving from self reliance to Source reliance is the natural order of progression, I notice … not the other way around.
We don't just sit down and expect Source to carry us; “I am waiting on the Lord to tell me what to do”, sort of thing. It's not that. No, we must develop self initiative before we can release into total dependency on Source.
Our hard earned self reliance becomes that which we offer up to Source (which means we have to already have it). Our independent self becomes that which we lay on the alter in exchange for complete union with Source. This surrender necessitates stretching our minds through disciplined willingness first so that our efforts to reach to Source will culminate in being filled and guided by Its Grace and Wisdom.